I really wanted to put her picture here and say Match the face with a name, and I will give you a dollar! But I won't, because like the title says, I'm being nice. Also becuz I will not tolerate a disturbing image like that anywhere on my fb.
Almost sent it out. But I'll surely get a reply within 10 minutes, regardless of how much I emphasized on the fact that I hold no interest in talking with her. But I needed to write it. After all that shit she has said to me, all that pain she has caused me. I know now that no one is going to defend me, not my bf, and she will never ever feel sorry regardless of what I say, but I need to let it out. Maybe I'm not enough of an ass hole to spit in your face, but doesn't mean I don't think about doing it.
I realized I trust people too easily, my mom kept telling me that. But why is it so wrong to have faith in people? That's what I always thought, now I know why, because you end up hurting yourself the most.
I believed her email, thinking she was being nice to a fellow female, only to realize later it was simply an attempt to put tension between my relationship, I don't know what good that will do for her, I'm not the only female in this world that is going to date this guy, why can't you skip me and move on to the next one already, haven't you done enough damage to me?
But even now, there's a little part of me that still believes in what she said. Though I have tried to ignore it, but it's true, I don't think I trust either of them completely any more. Sure, I trust people easily, but once you lose it, I can't gurantee that you will ever get it back. I blame myself the most, should've learned my lesson in gr.12, guess I'm not so bright in the mind after all. And Loo has done nothing to help, apparently.
Sometimes, I Really just want people to leave me alone. This is the first time I disliked internet, disliked the loose ends I left unattended. Maybe now is a good time to deactivate facebook. What will she try next? MSN? Call? Mail? Knock on my door? Seriously, if she does, I WILL stick a knife in her chest just to get her ugly face out of my sight,
I swear I will.
Then again, I won't be really surprised if what she said was true. But still, it'll just be one more person that I hate, not less.
Anyhow, here's the msg I would have liked her to read. Though it wont happen, unless one of you bitching assholes forward it to her of course, but again, that's none of my concern because I will tell her to talk to whoever forwarded it. I have not bothered her after everything she did to me, and I will only expect the same from her. And I will not tolerate it if she ever tries to stick her fat ass in my life again.
This is to you, my one bitch-ass of a friend,
I really want to be nice and thank you for the effort, but I can't, now that I know the true intention of this message, and remembering all that shit you said to and about me before. I don't think I want to even try to be polite.
All in all, I know you still like him, and I know it was HIM who cut YOU off, AGAIN. But this time I'm not involved in this shit, it is not me who told him to kiss you then ditch you. So w/e your problem with him is, go talk to him and leave me out of this shit, ok? Just, stop bothering me and get out of my life completely.
Your ex has moved on, why can't you. Or maybe you'd say you did, or he didn't, but honestly w/e. I don't care. Believe what you want, it's ur business not mine and I don't give a damn about u, ur life, or ur problems alright? Just because it's bothering you doesn't give u the right to bother me.
If you feel anything in my message is wrong about you or you and ur ex' relationship, then go talk to ur ex about it. Do me a favor hun, please, don't message me again, thanks.
I will never forget this, never.
Joomin sent you a message.
This is Joomin, you probably know me as Jeffrey's ex- girlfriend. I'm messaging you because I think you should really sit down and talk to your boyfriend. I know this is the last thing you want to hear from your boyfriend's ex, and I know that it should be none of my business.
But when he kissed me, it became my business. I'm sorry.
I don't know if he told you yet, but we've had coffee this term and we've been in (limited) contact. He kissed me and told me he missed me, albeit, he was drunk and he later apologized, I still don't think that's an excuse to be unfaithful. He wanted to have dinner for my birthday, but that hasn't happened yet, and won't happen because I decided to cut all contacts with him. Again, I'm sorry this happened, and I'm sorry to get involved and be a tattle-tale, but it has been really bothering me.
Hope you guys work things out,